This morning Kristin woke me up at 7 a.m. I must have forgotten to set my alarm. One of my first thoughts as I slurped down coffee to try and wake up was that we have to get girls loud radio alarm clocks. The second thought was one of my gloom and doom thoughts and I just wanted to crawl back under the covers and go to sleep. What's that about? I didn't, though. I made myself get dressed and drive Heidi to school. Luckily, Kristin usually gets up at 7 and so was able to catch the bus as usual.
As I was driving Heidi I wondered if the Prozac wasn't working as well anymore. I've been feeling down this week and sleeping a lot recently. My gloom and doom type thoughts are coming back, especially after last night. I made a phone call and was told a second time I'd get called back...but now I'm not so sure. I'd started out 2 weeks ago feeling happy and optimistic but not anymore. How many times have I said to people "I'll call you" or "We'll get together" and then it never happened?
I've decided Dr. R isn't working out for Heidi and me so we are scheduled to see new doctors in December. In the meantime, I'll monitor my thoughts and feelings.
There are things I need to do today besides writing: mail a card, mail packages of videos to a friend, go to the bank, pay some bills...and I just don't feel like it. I have this what's the use? feeling this morning.
Last week:
::Butterflies are Free::
Onesome: Butterflies-- 'Tis the end of butterfly season, at least here in the Northern Hemisphere (hey, we have readers and respondents in the Southern); what are you looking forward to seeing around the yards and neighborhoods in the next few months. (...besides snow, unless that's all you have staring back at you during the Winter months!)
I'm looking forward to seeing the leaves on the trees change colors and watching squirrels running around trying to bury their acorns
Twosome: are-- Are your sports teams doing okay this Fall? Baseball is down to the final stretch and it's time to chose up sides! ...and football is darned interesting at the six-week mark? No interest? How about curling
Absolutely no interest anymore in football or baseball
Threesome: Free-- What is your favorite "freebie"? That 'buy one, get one free' sale? ...the ice cream cone from your local shop on your birthday? The samples at Starbucks? Inquiring minds and all that...
The initial offers from the book clubs...get 6 books for 99 cents. I love to read and I know I pay for shipping and handling but it's still so much cheaper than going to the bookstore. They seem free!
::Painted Garden Gnomes::
Onesome: Painted-- Hey! Are you getting all painted up on Monday and going out and about? What are you dressing up as? ...or are you staying home and handing out goodies? ...or sitting in the dark and wishing they would all just go away? Come on
No, I'm not getting dressed up...haven't done that since the kids were little. Heidi's going to hand out the candy and I'm going to sit in front of my computer and ignore the doorbell. Bah, pumpkin.
Twosome: Garden-- In the garden of your mind, where do you go to relax for a few moments? Off to the beach? ...to the mountains? ...to a different world? ...or maybe a stroll though an old Victorian landscape?
I go to LaLa Land which is a combination of all of the above, most especially the beach.
Threesome: Gnomes-- Okay, we have to know: what do you think about garden gnomes and pink flamingos and such? I mean other than there seems to be a local ordinance that you have to have at least one or the other in your front yard if you live in South Florida?
I think they're adorable...but not in my yard.
Posted by Cassie at October 27, 2005 09:11 AM | TrackBack