Billy called yesterday afternoon. I wasn't sure how long he was going to be on the overnight camping trip that started Sunday morning. He got back around 2 in the afternoon and was just about to head over for a barbecue. The rest of the students were all arriving that day and so the barbecue was one of those "getting to know you" events. Today he's off doing some other camp trip and then tomorrow he's going on his bike road trip. Busy busy busy! Classes start for him on the 29th.
I didn't tell him what happened at the mediation. I had an appointment with my therapist yesterday afternoon and had vented a lot of my feelings to her. I think I tend to be a Pollyanna when it comes to people because I really thought we'd be able to work something out in the hearing. I thought that Kennan and Linda would be able to set their personal feelings for us aside to work for the best interest of Tomas. As I talked to the therapist about what happened, she finally said: "I can't believe you thought any good was going to come of the hearing."
I stopped and really thought about it. I thought about Linda's behavior over the year she lived with us. I thought about the way Kennan was behaving. I hadn't really seen that before and I was actually thinking he was a good guy, misjudged and a whole lot of other baloney. Michele kept trying to tell me I hadn't seen him the way he really is. Well, I sure have now.
Now, hopefully, I will have finally gotten it into my head that there is no way we are ever going to be able to talk to Kennan and Linda -- it would be like having a conversation with a brick wall. Going to court is a waste of the tax payers' money and a waste of the judge's time but the mediator was right...trying to settle things amicably will never work.
So it goes.
Posted by Cassie at August 24, 2005 07:18 AM | TrackBack