What happened keeps rolling around and around in my mind. I've written down stuff that has happened but haven't put it all on this journal because some of it was just too personal. Right now I don't care very much. I keep seeing sweet Little T's face and wondering if we'll see him again or will Linda & Kennan just be vindictive? I feel a kind of hatred toward Linda for what she has done to us.
We had an ugly scene today and now Little T is gone. We'd totally been pushed to the wall by Linda, totally betrayed and taken in by her. She has made absolutely no attempt to better herself, breaking every single agreement she made to living here. She's become snottier and more obnoxious and flaunting of the fact that she realizes Tomas is -- or was -- her trump card. It all happened so damn quickly it's hard to say how it started exactly. TB asked her again about the money she owes us and Heidi and she had this attitude and said, well, I don't have any. So TB said, well, you're going to have to find another place to live. From there, it suddenly developed into she was leaving NOW and not coming back. Kennan was there to take Linda and the baby to the doctor. It seems he knows that Linda is charged with providing alcohol to minors. He was upset with us because we've written about him online. He also made snide comments about TB's injury and also said that he'd been supporting Tomas all along. Well, that's news to me. He didn't provide money for the crib -- TB and I loaned Linda the money for that. We bought milk, baby food and diapers for the baby a lot almost every time we went shopping. Maybe he gave Linda some money to help out but I sure as hell wouldn't say he'd been supporting his baby. Why was he like $1200 in arrears then? Well, that is neither here nor there now. I asked him if he would take Linda in and give her & the baby a safe place to stay and he just shrugged. So then I said the baby should stay here and Linda yelled no. I said to Kennan if I couldn't be sure that the baby would be safe I would call DYFS (Division of Youth & Family Services) and he said, "Do what you have to do."
Two women came from DYFS and went over to Kennan's to make sure Tomas is safe. His brother-in-law smokes in that house and it's bad for the baby.
It's just been horrible. I can't stop crying. I can't get T out of my head.