So now I am almost at the end of the first phase of the study. TB drove me to see Dr. R and Lisa even though he's feeling sick and I wanted him to see his own doctor. Dr. R asked me, "Are you cured?" with a small smile and I said, "No." Based on whatever criteria needs to be met, I'll either go on with the next phase of the study after next week or I'll be dropped. Either way, I'll stick with the prozac.
I think the next med I'm supposed to be paired with (or with a placebo) is olanzapine and if that is the case, I don't think I want to go on with the study. I've seen stuff already about Zyprexa, especially the link to the diabetes and what with the risk of more weight gain, I don't think I ought to take it! I am going to read up on both these drugs and see what happens when I go for my appointment next week. I wouldn't have realized about this next drug except that I agreed to do a call-in study for the next 3 weeks on a daily mood tracker that is connected to this study I'm already in.
If I don't continue with the study, I think Dr. R will continue to follow me through my family doctor. Even if he doesn't, the prozac is helping enough now that my family doctor should be okay with continuing to prescribe it for me.
During this holiday season, I've been trying to stay away from the news of the real world. It hasn't always been easy. There was that terrible story about expectant mother murdered by a sicko who then cut the baby from the body. Thank God for savvy computer users! The killer was traced through the Internet. The story becomes sicker and more bizarre as I learned that killer and victim were in the same picture at a dog show recently. That's how they were brought together ... the killer contacted her on the pretext of buying a rat terrier puppy. The killer knew the victim was pregnant.
I keep calling her 'the killer, the killer' because she doesn't even seem like a human to me. She had two teenage children of her own and yet she killed this young woman just so she could steal the victim's firstborn. I don't understand it at all. I can't even begin to, even with the understanding that the killer miscarried not too long ago. It's got to be related to some kind of psychosis because how else can you explain something so evil? I don't understand psychosis either except that it's a break with reality.
Even if the killer is psychotic, I can't find much sympathy for her. I keep looking at the faces of the victim's husband and her tiny little baby, so violently brought into the world.
Thank God the baby didn't die!
Ten New Year's Resolutions
1. Don't make any resolutions; you'll only break them
2. Don't make any resolutions; you'll only break them
3. Don't make any resolutions; you'll only break them
4. Don't make any resolutions; you'll only break them
5. Don't make any resolutions; you'll only break them
6. Oh all right, but don't make too many resolutions, they're too hard to keep
7. Eat more healthily
8. Exercise
9. Lose weight
10. Keep these resolutions!