September 29, 2005
Small Update
These pictures were taken on April 12 of this year, the last time Heidi and I saw Tomas. I've been trying not to think about him or to look at his pictures a lot because it's painful. TB and I miss all our grandkids. At least we know that we can see Brandon, Ryan, Taylor & little Nikolas.
I'm sure he has changed -- grown taller and looks older. Babies change quite a lot in 6 months.
We are scheduled to go before a judge on October 3rd, asking for visitation with our little T. We haven't seen him since April and miss him terribly. We met with a lawyer yesterday and I started to cry as I talked about Tomas. That's all I'm going to say about that because I know Linda reads our blogs.
TB and I have often wondered what Tomas thinks of all of this. He has no stability in his life anymore. He used to live with us and we interacted with him everyday, loved him and had certain routines ... then all of that changed. He's been in 3 or 4 different "homes" since April and was suddenly cut off from TB and me by his mother. First he lived with his mother and now he doesn't. Kids are not ping pong balls. I'm sure all this bouncing around is having a bad effect on him. I'm sure he misses us and certainly doesn't understand why he doesn't see us anymore. I don't think she cares that she's hurting her baby as well as us.